Fredrik Is Feeling Bittersweet

As this season of Million Dollar Listing New York is coming to an end tonight with it's dramatic finale, it's a bittersweet moment. Bitter because it's over, sweet because it IS over.

Like most things in life when you give everything and put it all on the line, it is intense and honest. Bitter because it's not easy seeing my own bad sides sometimes. Sweet because I have grown so much since the first season. Bitter because I can't seem to agree with my husband on having kids for now. Sweet because I love him so much it hurts. Bitter because Luis doesn't see what I see. Sweet because I will keep on moving. Sweet because Ryan and I are not disagreeing for the first time in a long time.

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This season was emotional for me, but most of all it was an incredible ride for business. And finally, after 12 years in New York, becoming number one. From 16 Warren the cursed penthouse that sat five years in the market with six brokers until I came along, to the Apthorp with a new friend in Ari, to 11 North Moore and it's $100M in a week for amazing Zach, to the 101 Warren penthouse record deal with Zekey, to the 20 Greene St penthouse also a record in record time, to the Park Slope's big townhouse for Jeanne, to finally tonight's big, bold, beautiful new project in Bridgehampton with 37 freestanding homes. Bitter because I couldn't show you more deals. Sweet because I hope someone somewhere out there learnt a thing or two from me.

I like this photo because it is now finally summer and dare I say a new season might start, because the fog is lingering there behind me in the grass with hope, because I stand between day and night and therefore in an ending and a beginning.

Thanks to Bravo and all for watching, and for all your likes and amazing comments, those are only sweet. Yes, really, really sweet!