Hate Is All Carlton Has Shown Kyle

This week is the kick off to some real craziness coming up. Buckle up!

Mauricio and I received an invitation to Carlton and David's event and then after the dinner party received a "disinvite." I think it was a given I wouldn't go, but if Carlton felt the need to make sure I wasn't going to attend, I think the disinviting should have been directed to both Mauricio and myself. I'm not sure if she actually thought my husband would show up without me or she just wanted to add salt to the wound.

My kids laugh about how neurotic I am, and watching me tell Alexia never to leave her drink alone I can see what they mean. I have four daughters and I hear a lot of crazy stories about people putting things in peoples drinks. So, I may be a worrywart, but that's my job.

It was a sweet moment watching Yolanda become a U.S citizen. I laughed watching Yolanda answer the questions because I was thinking that if I had to answer those questions, I might get kicked out of this country!

Brandi and I have never been close. This year I started to get to know her better and understand her more. After Lisa and I had our falling out they became close. When Lisa and I planned the party for Ken and Mauricio we were in a better place than last year and had just started talking more frequently. I was still upset about Lisa bringing up the tabloids for everyone to hear -- and in front of Portia. I felt she was pretending to be supportive while still trying to cast doubt in people's minds (like in her conversation with Ken when he defended Mauricio and she clearly didn't).

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After the Reunion last year I didn't think we would ever be able to be friends again. It's one thing to go after me but to go after my husband and his business was totally uncalled for. When we first started this season, it was a rough start. The "Dream Team" made it difficult for anyone to move forward. There was such a clear divide in the group. When Lisa and I planned the party for Ken and Mauricio we were just starting to mend and I was willing to move forward -- cautiously. When Carlton and I had the argument at the party I was grateful that Lisa (and Brandi) saw things for what they were and that Lisa told Carlton that night and later at Carlton's party.

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I have to say, I had a hard time buying Carlton's tears and talking about how she can't understand "hate" when that's is all she has shown me. It felt very hypocritical, and I felt she seemed more concerned with the anti-Semitic comment hurting business than anything else. I said it before and I will say it again, I regret not choosing my words better while in the heat of the moment. I don't think she has any regrets for the way she has treated me.

When Brandi and I met up for our hike I had known she was having issues with Lisa, but didn't know exactly what was going on. I think Brandi came to me because she thought I could relate. Although our issues have been different,  they were with the same person. If Lisa and I were in a different place, perhaps that conversation would have gone differently. But we were still on the mend, and I could understand Brandi's frustration. We are expected to be honest about our feelings and that's what I was. I care about Lisa, but have been hurt by her as well. I still wanted to move forward and put the past behind us because we had once had a great friendship.

Although, this can be a difficult group to navigate through. . . 

Until next week! XO,

Kyle