Everyone Makes Mistakes

I am extremely saddened by the disaster in Japan, as I'm sure you all are. The death toll and high number of missing people is devastating. This should be a reminder to all of us of how precious and fragile life really is. We have to appreciate and be thankful for everything that we have, and for all the loving people in our lives. It all can be gone so fast. I pray and hope that the people affected by this terrible catastrophe will find the strength to heal and rebuild with confidence and peace.

With that said, It is very hard to transition into the cattiness of the show and the things that were said, since they really don't matter in big picture of life. But, since I signed up for this show, here I go. I would like to start off by saying how happy I am that Vicki and I recovered from last year. I care about her so much and consider her family. I realize now that she cared about me, and that is why she said the things she said to Simon. The hardest thing in the world is to take someone else's side other than your husband's when your marriage is falling apart. Vicki is a woman that works hard in life, loves her family and friends, and also plays hard. She can be sharp with her tongue at times, as most of us can, but you will always know where you stand with her. She is a true friend. I am really getting to know Peggy, and I'm so glad she was brought on the show. She is a fun-loving friend with great family values. I have gotten close to Peggy rather quickly and see my self being friends with her for life.

OK Gretchen, we all get it, you can't forgive me for exposing your past! But here is a news alert, if you sign up for a reality show and you have skeletons in your closet, they're going to come out! There are a few things that I would like to clarify about what she was saying. First that I owe her an apology -- I personally have apologized to Gretchen two different times. One of them was on a televised press event with all the Housewives there. I reached out to her off season asking that we put things behind us, and she agreed. Two weeks ago in NYC I told her I wished her the best and really did not care to continue with this nonsense. The last two weeks she has continued to talk badly about me and blame me for her mistakes. I see no reason to continue trying at this point, not everybody needs to be friends. The truth of the matter is she knows I know the truth about her past relationship and she hates it. If it was all a lie, she would have moved on. Like I said in my first blog, your lies become your future. As we will see this season, two other housewives come forward with knowledge of her past. I wonder if she will blame them for ruining her life too? Second, that the last five years of my marriage were fake -- First of all how can a marriage be fake? I told her that Simon and I had been having problems in our marriage for about five years. I think every viewer could see that last season things were not good, and prior to that I kept my pain to myself as most people do in my situation. Third, that I am banging Simon's friend -- That was a rumor that Simon put out there in the press. Simon and I both had met Eddie at a holiday party a few years ago with Marcos, but that does not make them friends! Fourth, that I went to her hair guy Victor and called his salon about a rumor -- This is the funnest lie of them all. Victor is what I like to call a Housewife ankle biter. He chased after all the ladies to try and get on the show. These are the kind of people that I do not let in my life, and Gretchen should really think twice about the company she keeps. As we all see, she has contradicted herself so many times on this episode it's almost comical.

The one thing about me is I will always own my mistakes, which leads me to the bathtub scene. I knew the next day after filming it that I made a big mistake. It was me getting caught up int he moment, drinking wine, and forgetting the cameras were there. I have been dreading this episode for eight months. As a mother, this was not one of my smartest moments on TV. Even thought I do not allow my children to watch the show, it doesn't mean their friends don't. This was one of those moments that I had to sit my kids down and tell them that mommy made a mistake and did something on TV that was in bad taste. I have a great communication line with my kids and have taught them that everyone makes mistakes, and as long as you own up to your mistakes, you will learn from them.

You finally got to see Eddie in more ways than your probably wanted too. He didn't say much and was extremely nervous in front of the camera. The first night we filmed I looked over at him and he started to turn white and said, "I cant do this." So that was the reason for the shot of tequila, it calmed his nerves. The bathtub scene was about five shots of tequila for him, and when he walked in the bathroom he was caught totally off guard. He looked at me and said, "You're naked," while there were about five people with cameras and audio looking on. It was uncomfortable for him, but he jumped right in.

Eddie is an amazing man, and I am so lucky to have him in my life. He has been with me through this divorce process and has been so understanding and not judgmental. I am sure it has been hard for him at times, but he has helped me heal along the way, when most guys would have ran. I am the first to agree that getting involved with someone so soon is not a good choice. Although in the beginning it helps with the pain, it also stops you from dealing with the issue at hand. Everybody deals with divorce differently and I am not sure there is a right way or a wrong way to deal with your emotions.

Eddie has meet my kids a few times, but we are not pushing anything on them. He knows the importance of giving the kids the time they need. I think they still have a long road of healing. My kids know that he makes me happy and will never take the place of their father. Simon is a very hands-on dad, and we share equal custody. So the time that I have the kids I spend with them, and the time he has them I am able to spend time with Eddie and my friends. At first glance you would think Eddie is a another good looking Orange County player. This is a perfect example of how you cannot judge a book by its cover. You will learn a lot about him and how this once poor boy from Mexico made a good life for himself and his family around him. He really is a true inspiration to a lot of people.

I was dying laughing at Jim in his car when he was trying to use the voice activated phone book. Eddie just recently bought that exact same car, and it happens to him every time! Since seeing this episode, I yell out "Dan!" whenever Eddie is trying to call someone from his car, and he looks at me like, "Can you please just grow up?" I don't know why I think it is the funniest thing ever. In the time it takes to get the voice activated thing to work, you could have just dialed it.