Let It Go

Thank goodness we had such a fun, happy episode last week in San Antonio! I had so much fun and loved being with those three girls!

This week when we see Donn and Vicki in their home setting, it felt so odd. I truly feel so sad for Vicki and Donn. I know that neither of them wishes to be in the place they are, yet somehow they ended up there. It seems they are so short with each other and living such separate lives. I wouldn't wish that on anyone, nor would I wish divorce on anyone. I know they are both hurting, and they are both good people. This is a rough time for them, so I cannot comment on where they are in their lives.

When Vicki and Tamra go out for cocktails, it is so hard to hear what Vicki has to say about her marriage. It's just so, so sad. It's really disappointing to hear Tamra and Vicki's comments on Dylan, my assistant. Why do they constantly pick on people that aren't even on the show? Dylan filmed three times, and my husband only a few times, but for some reason Dylan and Jim are the topics of conversation. Dylan is just an innocent bystander in this whole story, and he doesn't have a mean bone in his body. So to hear all the negative things said about him (and the gay community in general) just ticks me off. Are Tamra and Vicki that miserable that they must insult Dylan to make themselves feel better? Actually, they insult anyone who isn't around them at that moment.

Then Micah says he doesn't understand why I would have an assistant. Micah would never understand why I have an assistant, because he is never be as busy as I am. Micah claims he hates it when:

"Everybody's trying to be something they are not."

"Everybody's caught up."

"Everybody's trying to keep up with the Jones'. Live within your means."

Umm wait, this sounds just like Micah. It's interesting the way some people operate. I have learned a lot about people and this industry. Micah is projecting all of those things onto other people, but in all actuality that is how he acts. Micah is preaching such an introspective message here. Jim and I have many good investments, and we had one bad investment, our home. We sold our home and are moving on. We also just purchased a new company, a franchise in all of southern California. I will be disclosing that soon, and it's super exciting! Why my finances are such a topic of discussion is beyond me, but as you can see, Jim and I are doing fine financially. It is so unbelievable to me that Peggy and Micah are so harsh and mean to Jim and I. At this point, I have to just let it go. I honestly don't have the time or energy to discuss every single horrible thing they say. I'm moving on, and I know the truth will be discovered. It just irks me that people continue to talk badly about my husband, when he isn't even here to defend himself. These topics make me a little cranky.

Let's talk about something fun! My dress premiere luncheon was so amazing! I don't care what drama came that day, my dresses are so amazing, and it was a fabulous and fun day! Pascal's Brasserrie in Newport Beach is one of my favorite places to eat. Originally when I had discussed my premiere luncheon idea with Pascal, he said he had a great vision. However, I was shocked to hear his vision included quail, foie gras, and brioche. Pascal's menu in his restaurant isn't quite that French, so I was expecting food similar to what is on the menu. All in all I think we chose a mushroom soup, a salad, a ham croissant, halibut, and dessert. So we made a good compromise between French and American!

When Peggy came up to me to say how proud she was of me after just ripping me down in Vegas, it made me want to pluck my eyeballs out. Really? I mean why in the world would you come over to me and act like you were my friend after sitting and talking trash in Vegas? Are you that fake that you say horrible, mean things about me in Vegas, and the next thing you know, you are hugging me and congratulating me? I just don't operate that way. I would so much rather someone respectfully decline than come to my premiere after saying such rude and mean things about me days before.

Ten minutes before my premiere began, I called Vicki to see how far away she was. When I heard her voice on the phone telling me that she was on her way to the hospital, I could hear the urgency in her voice. It was only when Tamra said Vicki was going in for surgery that I worried sincerely. I did not know how to handle the situation when Gretchen said she thought it was interesting that Vicki was deciding to go to the hospital at that moment. I know Gretchen has been around these women longer, and I trust that she knows things I don't about them. But at that point in the premiere I couldn't focus on whether Gretchen was right or wrong, I had to focus on the party and getting the models through in a timely manner. That is why you see me being so quiet. I am simply absorbing everything and trying to run my show. In my heart of hearts, I knew Vicki would not pull a stunt like that, yet I knew Gretchen has been right before. I just needed to stay calm and try to turn the mood around. The only point I really feel needs to be made is that Tamra should have excused herself and rushed off to the hospital if she was truly as worried as she claimed to be. However the premiere went on and the dresses looked like a million bucks! I was so proud that all the planning, sleepless nights, and gorgeous models paid off!

My black "Braid" maxi has done so well that I am launching it in two new colors that I will be revealing this week at www.everythingalexis.com! Thank you to all of you who have purchased the black maxi, it will be shipping this week! Alexis Couture and Alexis Casual are also doing well and are available on my website with some new styles coming this week as well. Thank all of you for your orders! Follow me for more frequent updates on my Facebook page at Alexis Bellino Verified Profile or on Twitter @alexisbellino!

Much love and happiness,

Alexis