Jerry Springer Gone Wrong

This episode was Jerry Springer gone wrong! It was very interesting to finally see what happened the day of Vicki's party, since on the actual day of the party I didn't see anything that occurred.

It's obvious Vicki is devastated from losing her marriage. No one wants to be divorced. It's heartbreaking in every aspect, and I wish Vicki and Donn find true happiness again and remain friends throughout this difficult time.

Dylan and I always have a blast getting ready for parties. He is such a nice and funny guy! Dylan doesn't ever say a mean thing about anyone, nor does he have any enemies, so it's sad that he got a bad rap on a few of these episodes. None of the other women even know him, so it ticks me off that they talk badly about him. All I know is that Dylan and I laugh 24/7 when we are together. He is so talented with makeup and photography! To contact him for either of those, you can email him at Dylanandco@gmail.com. Since Jim didn't want to go to Vicki's party, I took Dylan along with four of my great girlfriends.

Jim decided not to attend the party, because he didn't want the drama. After I came home crying from Peggy's party, it confirmed for him that he didn't want to be around that group. And why should he? The only things any of them have said about him all year have been gross, mean, evil, and untrue. I think Jim had every right to not want to go, especially after watching the entire year play out.

I made the comment about liberal America, because I was asked why I thought so many people find my marriage so controversial, and that is why -- because I think America is going through a liberal movement, and the older, more traditional marriage values are becoming something of the past. Jim and I are one couple who still favor a more traditional marriage rather than a liberal marriage, and because we do, it makes my marriage an interesting conversation topic. However just because we have a more traditional marriage does not mean I do not make my own decisions. As you can see just in this one episode, I chose to wear the dress I wanted, not the dress that was Jim's first choice. I chose to go to the party without Jim, not stay home with him. So anyone thinking Jim bosses me around or that Jim is controlling can obviously see that that is not true. It's important to grow together in our marriage, we want each other to be our own persons, make our own decisions, and be true to who we are. With that said, I run my household with the structure that Jim is the final decision maker in our home. Are there times I put my foot down and make a final decision? Absolutely. Are there times we butt heads? Absolutely. However, the way our home operates works the best for us. I don't judge other people's marriage, so don't judge mine. To each their own, that's the way it should be.

Peggy says it doesn't surprise her that Jim's not coming. Jim will be Jim and he doesn't care if he hurts other people. He just does what he wants to do. The truth of the matter is that if I would have asked Jim to come with me, he definitely would have come. But why on earth would I ask him to go somewhere he really doesn't want to go? I personally didn't care if Jim came or not. I would have loved him to be there with me, but I also knew I would have so much fun with the group of girls I was taking, so why put him in an uncomfortable environment when it wasn't necessary?

When I arrived at Vicki's house, it was completely breathtaking. She had brought in fall leaves and scattered them all over. There were pumpkins everywhere. How convenient that my dress matched the setting! I love that dress! It's from Alexis Couture, and I named it "Paparazzi Love It," because it's bright orange and as you turn around to wave goodbye to the paparazzi, they see that it's backless! It's available on my website for purchase at www.everythingalexis.com. Vicki did an amazing job with her party, and now after seeing how emotionally and mentally drained she was, it's pretty impressive that she pulled the party off at all. I felt it was important for all five of us to go up and get Vicki and bring her down to her party. Although Vicki and I are not best friends, I still wanted to let her know I support her and I was there for her. It's kind of like a sisterhood thing. We may not all see eye to eye, but I don't want to see any of the other women sad or hurting.

Peggy and I are an entirely other topic. Where to begin, where to end. It's so exhausting and so sad. I don't feel like our friendship can recover from all that has happened this year. Peggy has changed so much from the moment she came around this group of women. From day one, every time we filmed she constantly found something to be mad at me about, she attacked me, she insinuated things. She never was herself. She acted like she had an ulterior motive. I felt like she was looking for a reason for us to not be friends anymore. Perhaps it's the Tamra/Gretchen thing, like since Peggy was so close to Tamra, she couldn't be friends with me anymore since I'm so close with Gretchen. I don't know, none of it makes sense. I just can't take a four year friendship with someone and kiss it goodbye without being a little upset about it.

After watching this entire season, I think every time I would "one up" Peggy it was me subconsciously mourning the death of our friendship. Maybe some of it was subconscious leftovers of the fact that I didn't find out until a few months before filming that she dated my husband fifteen years ago. She kept that secret from me for four years! It's not even a big deal, who cares if they dated? I dated people in the past too, Jim and I were both married once before. I'm definitely not trying to compete with Peggy, but it is apparent that some of my comments were unlike me and had some hurt behind them. I think all of that combined with the fact that Peggy has acted so differently is what comes across in my comments to Peggy. A perfect example is when Peggy gets upset about the lip comment I made in San Antonio. Are you kidding? Peggy intentionally gets her lips injected, so why would she feel insulted by me stating her lips are bigger than mine? If someone intentionally makes her lips bigger, wouldn't it be a compliment if someone thinks you have big lips? Honestly I didn't even remember saying it when Peggy confronted me, so it's not like I was trying to hurt her feelings. I think Peggy has great lips, and I love my lips, so end of conversation.

Next we see Peggy go over to Jeana. Why would Peggy stick her nose in the middle of Tamra and Jeana's situation? That is exactly how I'd feel every time I'd film with Peggy, like she was looking for camera time, like she was looking for some drama to cause or to be in the middle of. Just like the lip comment, just like at the beginning of Vicki's party when Peggy is running around loud and crazy to everyone claiming we are not to mention Donn's name during the entire party.

Tamra throwing wine on Jeana is absolutely gross. But what's new? I didn't expect anything less. Tamra tells Gretchen and I that the reason she threw the wine on Jeana was because Jeana pushed Tamra. That was an outright lie. Jeana never laid a finger on Tamra. I don't think Jeana would ever stoop to that level. Jeana shouldn't be out in the press talking about Tamra, but Tamra has no room to talk about that matter, because she is the queen of talking about people. And Jeana certainly wouldn't attack Tamra aggressively.

I think the moral of the story here is that there will never be a drama free party when you get the five of us girls together! At least there were no broken bones and no police involved! Ha!

This was a very interesting and action filled year to say the least. Thank you to all of you who have purchased one of my dresses! I hope you love them as much as I do! My black "Braid" maxi has done exceptionally well, and I have two new summer colors coming out this week! You can visit my website regularly to see new additions to Alexis Casual and Alexis Couture or to purchase any of my current line at www.everythingalexis.com. My hat line has also launched. The second hat, the "Truth" hat, is perfect for summertime! There are a lot of exciting new items coming over the summer so follow me on Twitter @alexisbellino or Facebook at Alexis Bellino Verified Profile for frequent updates! Also I receive several inquiries a month about the monogram necklace Jim got me last year, and you can visit www.newport-jewelers.com to order your own!

I just want to say thank you to all of you who have supported me knowing that there isn't enough time to tell the entire story.

Love you all,

Alexis