A Fresh Start?

I was so happy to see the show stated out with my daughter's "red carpet" wrap party. Sidney is very much into theater and Beauty and the Beast was the musical she had just finished. I'm upset they didn't show a lot of the party and focused only the tension between Simon and me. Simon had every right to be upset, just not with me. I admit that the comment Ricky made was out of line, especially at a kids party.

There was so much more to the party. What you didn't see was award ceremony where the kids were given faux-Oscars and gave acceptance speeches. The kids walked the red carpet and sang some amazing songs from the play - there were so many talented kids.

St. Regis was a total disaster! I walked into Lynne's party NOT wanting to say a negative word to Gretchen. I sat there minding my own business and Vicki and Jeana kept stirring the pot. Gretchen and I even had a conversation, we decided we DID not want to have a fight on camera, and it was not the time nor the place to do it. We were there for Lynne and wanted it to be HER day. We both knew that we needed to clear the air and talk things out ... but NOT there. Then all hell broke loose and it wasn't my idea! It was a lot of 'he said she said' nonsense. I actually walked out of there and decided I was done filming and wanted off the show. This is not what I wanted this season, but I signed one of those things called a contract and there wasn't much I could do but try to change things around in the future.

Gretchen and I had a lot of outside influences that determined our lack of friendship last year. It was a lot more then a phone call in the middle of the night. I don't care to elaborate on everything that happened and if I have to take 100% of the blame, so be it. I really do try to move on this year and concentrate on the things that are important in life.

I am constantly asked about Gretchen's relationship with Slade and all I can say is: "If it works for them, then great." Of course there is going to be a lot said by everyone - this is the third housewife he has dated and that's just one of those things that makes you say ... hmmm?

Last year I did not get to know Lynne very well. I would say that we were all hard on her and I feel horrible about it. I have gotten to know her much better over the past year and I would have to say: "To know Lynne is to love Lynne." She has the biggest heart in the world and I am happy to say she is my friend for life.

I am so happy that Alexis joined our Housewives family. She is a really beautiful and sweet girl with great family values. I think she brings a lot of excitement to our show and I can't wait to see it all play out this season. Love you Alexis!