To Be Continued ...

Hi everyone!

Before I get into Episode 10, Bravo tells me that they have had an enormous amount of requests from viewers interested in knowing who the designer was of the leopard print dress that I wore for my bridal shower and more details in regards to our wedding. As far as details of our wedding, I am revamping my Web site www.lauriwaring.com. I will have extensive details of our wedding including a list of all of our vendors and lots of fun surprises. I think you will enjoy it even if a wedding is not on the horizon. The leopard print dress that I wore at my bridal shower was found by George at Villa Romana in St. Tropez last summer. I must say that George has incredible taste. The designer is Jenny Packham. Go to www.jennypackham.com to view her current collections. They are amazing!

It was so nice to have the opportunity to attend Tamra's 40th birthday party for two reasons: one being that it forced me to get away from the stress of planning a wedding to enjoy an evening with George and "the housewives" and the other reason being that I really like Tamra. She is so full of life, a bundle of energy, and just plain fun to be around. Tamra does not hold back from saying what is on her mind. You really can't predict what will flow out of her mouth. She is hilarious. Plus it was a special night for her and I know that Simon really went out of his way to make her happy. It is nice to be around couples that are so obviously in love as the two of them. I like the way they joke around with each other. I feel it is so important to laugh together. The Rolex watch Simon gave Tamra was incredible and she wears it well.

As George and I had less than 10 weeks total to plan our wedding, we didn't have much time to socialize with our friends. I think most of them thought we had dropped off the edge of the earth. Barbara Wallace, our wedding planner became our best friend. We did manage to sneak in a trip to Europe shortly before our wedding. We went to Paris, Rome, and then met our friends in St. Tropez, which is turning out to be an annual event. St. Tropez is a bit like Vegas, in that what happens in St. Tropez, stays in St. Tropez I came home exhausted and had my first and only real panic attack when I realized we had only two weeks left before the wedding and I had so much to do. I thought I was having a heart attack, but my doctor confirmed it was most likely stress revolving around the wedding planning. The smartest thing she said to me was, "What is the worst thing that can happen?" Really, as long as George and I and the pastor show up, nothing else really mattered! My perspective changed and I was able to relax.

I did not invite Quinn to my wedding because I really hadn't had the chance to get to know her prior to the wedding. I had only met her shortly before the wedding. We were limited to 200 seats for our dinner and I knew we were maxed out!

Towards the end of last summer, Josh had realized that he had chosen the wrong path. He realized he was headed down a dangerous and possibly deadly road. He expressed to me, for the first time ever, that he needed help. Prior to that day, I had tried everything in my power to keep him safe and healthy — even tough love, which, by the way is far "tougher" on the parent enforcing the rule than on the child! I had consulted many, many professionals, hospitals, and programs throughout California. It took me years to realize that the change had to be made by Josh and only Josh. When he told me that he needed and wanted help, I was overwhelmed with emotion, tears of happiness, and newfound hope. In dealing with Josh for nearly 19 years, I knew I had to have a professional on hand to act as a mediator as I had not been trained to deal with or treat his challenges. I had seen Stacie Kaiser, the psychotherapist, on various television programs and had sensed her compassion. I was impressed with her ability to see things as they are and not what she is told. I liked her insightfulness. She was able to identify dishonesty and she didn't have a problem calling you out on it. I felt she was a good fit. I wasn't sure if Josh would show up for the session as we had had an argument that morning in regards to his manipulation and deceit. I was prepared to have Stacie help just me in dealing with my emotions, frustrations, turmoil, and stress from my constant worry over Josh's well being. I was thankful that Josh showed up. It was his first step in taking on the responsibility of his own life and the beginning of his healing process.

I think Josh was somewhat reticent in showing up at our home for many reasons. Most often when meeting with a therapist you are challenged to acknowledge and face your problems. That can be scary and painful. With the addition of camera crews, you are fully aware that you are opening up your problems for the world to see. I also think that Josh was feeling some guilt over allowing himself to be used by an adult earlier that year, as a missile to hurt my relationship with George and to spread hatred. He was fully aware of the impact that it had on George and I and I know he felt ashamed about it. It must have taken a tremendous amount of courage to show up at George's house after so much destruction had occurred. I commend Josh for confronting his problems. People make mistakes. The lesson that I've been trying to teach Josh is what matters is that he acknowledge his wrongdoing, take responsibility for it, apologize if necessary, move on, and don't do it again! If it were only that easy — right?

Next week is our wedding! Our season finale, but the beginning of "Lauri & George" (and a very large family!) We won't disappoint you.

Stay tuned and Watch What Happens!

Lauri