Shannon: My Birthday Dinner Is Difficult to Watch
Shannon opens up about her uncomfortable birthday dinner...
This is a very tense episode to watch for many reasons. Let's begin... I am glad it is made clear that I did not tell Vicki or Brooks about the psychic on the night of Brooks' birthday dinner. I was so upset the night was ruined, but I was out in a no-win situation. I believe that Vicki would have been upset if I didn't give her some sort of heads up and we all saw what happened with my choice. I did not "spill the beans" and I am not "consistently inconsistent". In fact, I am quite the opposite and a very consistent and loyal friend. Bottom line, there is no good timing or method in discussing this topic.
I am happy that you get a tiny glimpse into one of our many lighter family moments as the girls paint pictures. Of course, my Stella is not happy about the toilet paper incident, but that would be typical in a "10 year old's life".
My birthday dinner is difficult to watch -- even more so because my children were present. I walked away from this night realizing the damage that we both cause when we don't get along in front of the children. When I decided to come back to the show this year, it was important for me to show the true journey that David and I are taking to repair and restore our marriage. With that, come major struggles. You are witnessing one of our biggest steps backward on the night of my birthday. While you see that we are doing well on a day-to-day basis, like with the kids in the craft room, life events and milestones can bring back not so pleasant memories. My 50th birthday was definitely one of my lower points of the last year and David was aware of that. To be seated at a table right next to a loud bar where there were stools and not even chairs, was not close to what I expected. I hate that I look like a spoiled brat, that nothing is good enough. But when David and I celebrated his 50th birthday at the end of last year, he made many heartfelt statements to me about what had happened on my 50th which gave me the impression my 51st was going to be special. I get it. It's just a birthday. But it was a day that represented a painful memory. I am just grateful that time and hard work on both David's and my part is healing this pain.
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It was so much fun going on Heather's house tour. It brought back a lot of great and overwhelming memories for me when we built ours! We used the same builder that Heather is using and this house is definitely over the top beautiful!!! By the way, I was kidding about the bathroom comment...
I don't like it when people argue. I am still feeling horrible about what happened at Brooks' birthday dinner. When someone is sick, it is one of the worst things to hear accusations that they may not be ill. It is strange to me that Meghan did research on Brooks' new proposed medical treatment and I think her comments to Vicki went way below the belt. Emotions are definitely running very high. It continues into next week's episode...
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