Nicole: "Bitterness is Leprosy to the Soul

Hi everyone,

Sorry this blog is so late I’m really going to try my best to get it in early next time, so it can be up first thing Monday morning. 

It was great to finally get an apology. Going back to that night and remembering how I felt, it was a really good feeling to forgive and let go. I truly feel what I said in my interview: "Bitterness is leprosy to the soul." At this point weeks had gone on with a lot of hurt , lies, and deceit, and with all the anger that I had towards Amber also came deep hurt. Once it involves my family, then it must end. Again I always feel people make mistakes, and if they are really sincere, they should be forgiven. So I left that café after our long conversation feeling really happy we were in a much better place and actually feeling hopeful for our friendship. It was hard for me to go back to that happy place this week due to the negativity in Amber's blogs this season and both Amber and Jim's comments on social media. There's a difference between right and raunchy, and my children do not need to be subjected to their vile and inherently evil comments. Especially since my children loved and respected my boyfriend, Gary! So my advice to Dina, since you are separated or may date a man who is separated, is make sure the Marcheses don't call you a “home wrecker” next season.

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I enjoyed watching this week’s episode. I love watching my family interact. Watching the scene with Teresa driving with my nephew Giovanni made me laugh, because that is so going to be me in the car once my boys start driving. (By the way I’m so proud of my son Anthony, who just got a 90 on his written driving test. He will be getting his permit shortly.) Rino totally cracks me up all the time. Everything he says is crazy funny. Seeing my dad with his cute little shoe covers was adorable, because that’s so my dad…he’s so anal! He’s a brilliant man and knows this business like the back of his hand. I was waiting for him to say, "I'm going to have a cigarette." But then I realized he was already smoking, LOL!I actually enjoyed seeing myself at work. My office is like my second home. One of my best friends, Adriana, is one of the assistants in the office, so I absolutely love seeing her in the morning and having our coffee together. It wasn’t a shock at all for my office to hear that phone call, because I’m extremely close to all them. They are like my second family, so they knew exactly what had been going on for weeks. I hope everyone will get to see more of me in the workforce, because it’s really exciting and I would love for you all to see some amazing private jets. That is what I call sexy!

Loved having dinner at Ponte Vecchio with everyone. Not only is it a beautiful restaurant, the food is outstanding! It was a great group. Joe Giudice's homemade wine was outrageous, and I truly love the two Joes. They both have a genuine sweetness about them and I enjoy being in their company along with their beautiful wives. We had such a great dinner at Angelo's with Teresa and Joe that I was excited to have them at Ponte Vecchio. I loved seeing Rosie happy. She deserves the very best, because she has the BIGGEST heart and gives so much! Her sisters Kathy’s cannolis were out of this world too! Amazing how Rosie and I started dating our significant others both in March. Yes, my brother-in-law mocks Amber and says "Nicole and Bobby’s relationship is facazy." Well I don’t know why Amber keeps on questioning or even cares so much about my relationship and whether Bobby is with me for the right reasons. Well I had a magnificent dinner with Bobby that night as well. We always have an amazing time wherever we are as long as we are together! 

It was incredible to see Dina’s dream board. I had a personal development business for five years and I feel strongly about dream boards. Dina has a beautiful spirit and I love what a great friend she is to Teresa. Those are the kind of friends people need in their lives.

I thank you all again for all the love I have felt this week. We all have so much to be grateful for. I want to end this blog to ask for a prayer for the horrific car accident that happened a few minutes from our home. Prayer for the family who lost two children, one father and one boy in critical condition. I’m asking for prayer and to please talk to our children daily about speeding. Speed kills and we constantly must remind our children and ourselves when we are in a rush to slow down. God Bless to all!