Melissa: "I Don't Know Who to Trust"

Hello, everyone. I’m just back from Orlando. We had a fantastic trip. Performing at Red Hot & Boom was an amazing experience, and I’m so grateful to have been a part of it. Thanks to everyone who came out, and for all your kind Tweets. I’ll have a live video of the performance on my website this week!
 
It wasn’t fun to come home to this episode. I honestly have no idea where to start. My head is still spinning. At this point, I don’t know who to trust. I don’t know what to believe. Everyone seems to be motivated by her own purposes. Somehow, that always means gossiping and spreading lies about me. I don’t go looking for drama, but if someone insults or lies about me, I have to defend myself. At this point, I’m sick of doing it. I just want the B.S. to stop. 

I should have seen it coming. I write about marriage, so I’m accused of cheating. If I wrote about gardening, I’d be accused of planting plastic trees. I should write about friendship, something like, “The friends you make as a lonely teenager are not necessarily who you want in your life later on.” I thought I was being a good friend keeping ties long after we’d grown apart. Good intentions can get you stabbed in the back. It hurt to live through it, and to watch it play out. I’m still a bit in shock.

 
I’m not going to defend myself against what was said about me. I’m innocent of every disgusting thing those scheming ladies cooked up about me. I know who I am, and what I’ve done. My family and friends know it too. Like I said in the episode, I don’t like to put everything on Teresa and I DON’T. But there is something to be said about the company you keep. And when an accusation as disgusting as giving BJs is being discussed on national TV about your own sister-in-law, no matter how much you “don’t like her,” I think what most people would do is: immediately get up and walk away, reach out to their family to give them the heads up since the last time this happened it caused such a divide, and maybe not tweet that “It was a good night” so that your brother and his wife don’t think that you enjoyed hearing this.You’ll see my frustration play out on next week’s episode… the road to recovery.

 
XO,
Melissa
 
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