Disrespecting Romain

While I am writing this blog, I am going through a lot of personal problems and heartache, so I will make this short and sweet. 

I practically helped raise my sister, and I was always told that family is priority and nothing is more important. When Marta moved out, I felt a part of me missing. No matter how much we argue and don't get along sometimes (even though we make up in minutes), we love each other and would kill for one another. I know at times I get a little too protective and I need to learn to let her go because she is a grown woman. To me in life nothing else matters but family. I don't care about money; if I had to trade it all in just to have a happy life, I would do it in a heartbeat. That is why I fight so much to protect Marta and everyone around me that I care about. Sometimes it comes off as if I am holding her hostage, not letting her fly and be on her own to figure out her own life. As an older sister, I have always felt it’s my responsibility to make sure Marta is taken care of, so when she moved backed in to our apartment in Miami, I felt at ease because I was sad not having her with me while she is living in the same city.

Since I grew up so fast helping raise Marta, it also taught me to fight for myself and protect those that I care about. I won't lie and say that I wasn't disappointed at Thomas Kramer’s when no one said a word as he disrespected Romain. Especially because Romain was going through some tough personal issues at the time, which is why I was so sensitive to the comment Thomas made. 

I also couldn't believe how he treated poor Elsa. No one stood up for her, and I kept quiet because I didn't want to be included in any more of the disrespect and drama. I will say I regret very much that I didn't end up leaving with Ana. The only thing that held me back was that I did not want to start another argument with Romain, even though Thomas Kramer’s house isn't Romain’s choice of entertainment and the only reason we went was for Karent. Romain probably would have totally understood why I left, but I didn't want to cause a scene. I was appalled at the way the ladies allowed him to speak to them; no amount of money or status should allow that, because a woman always needs to have a self-esteem and self-worth. It took a lot for me to hold back at the dinner, but it was for the sake of my relationship, and I won't lose sleep if I never step foot in that house again in my life.

P.S. Soon I will be sharing with everyone my story of being bullied as a child until the present, how I accomplished what I did, and what gave me the power to overcome (and still overcome) all the hatred through cyber bulling and regular bullying. I have never talked about it my whole life or shared it with the public, but I believe it is time and I am ready to share my story. I want to help those children and adults that feel they need to end their life because of the way they are treated in school, work, etc. and give them hope.  I want everyone to know I have to deal with it on a daily basis, and yes, there is hope for everyone that is a victim of bullying.

Lots of Love,

Joanna