Kyle: I Care Enough About Lisa to Move On

This week I visited Joyce and filled her in on Mauricio and Ken's birthday dinner and shared with her the strange happenings with my computer. I have no clue why my computer did that. I do know that I don't believe in "witchcraft" or "putting spells" on people. I just know that it was odd, and, in light of Joyce's recent experience with Michael getting sick, I shared it. Do I believe that Carlton did that? No. I did think it was strange and one of those things you just can't explain.

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I was really looking forward to Puerto Rico. We decided not to invite Carlton, for obvious reasons. If I'm planning a trip with Joyce, I would not invite someone that I'm not only not friends with, but someone I have had so many issues with. That would only be asking for trouble.

Gigi's party: I love how Yolanda and Mohammed get along so well. That is the only way to co-parent -- putting your children's well being first and foremost.

Gigi's party was beautiful. We always have fun at Mohammed's house. I honestly could not control my tears at Gigi's and Yolanda's beautiful speeches. Between Kimberly and Gigi going off to college and knowing Alexia will be leaving this August, it was just too close to home.

You could cut the tension between Lisa and Brandi with a knife -- not to mention the awkwardness between Carlton and I. After I gave the necklace to Carlton, I found the crown that goes to the necklace in my closet. I certainly wasn't going to throw away a piece of jewelry, and it made no sense to keep it.

I didn't feel comfortable walking up to Carlton, since she clearly doesn't like me and I didn't want to risk it turning into a fight. Honestly, it probably was part peace offering and part just what it was. . .the other half of the necklace. Everyday I would look at it and be reminded that it was the other half of the necklace that I gave Carlton. I would rather her have it than throw it away -- and it actually looks really cool together. The fact that Carlton viewed my having Brandi hand her this gift as doing my "dirty work" is exactly why I didn't feel comfortable handing it to her myself. She so desperately wants to hate me that she even views a gift as an attack.

The controversy over the necklace was ridiculous. There was so much "she said, she said" that I will let you come to your own opinion on that as I am still a bit confused myself. I do know that after Carlton had Brandi give it back to me that it was then given to Brandi, who then didn't want it, then to Yolanda, and then to Joyce later and then it went missing altogether. All this over a piece of jewelry!

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Joyce had told me that her father was ill and that she was going to visit him. She asked me not to tell the other women. When he actually did pass away, I didn't think that she would have still wanted to keep that private -- especially since we were all going to Puerto Rico and it was certainly bound to come up. I know when my parents passed away I wanted all the support I could get. I thought by letting them know they could reach out to her and hopefully offer support.

Lisa and I met at my store to look for clothes for Puerto Rico. As we started to speak, I realized I really needed to get some things off my chest. When I told Lisa that I wanted to move past our issues once and for all, I meant it. Lisa kept saying "Oh, we're past that. It's done." But clearly there were still some underlying issues.

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When I brought up the "accusations," I wasn't JUST referring to her bringing up the tabloids -- but also the accusations about Mauricio only befriending people for business. That had NEVER been discussed since Lisa said that at the Reunion last year. Not once. In order to start fresh, I wanted to address that so I could personally move past it.

I care enough about Lisa to move forward but needed to be heard. Last week Lisa questioned why I didn't defend her. . .Maybe because I had never had this conversation and was still hurt and upset by these situations that were swept under the carpet. I wanted to have this conversation so we could get back to where we once were. Lisa said that she was the most loyal friend I ever had. I kept quiet as I felt like we were making progress and wanted to stay on the right track. However, my most loyal friends and I haven't had to have this type of conversation. At this point, Lisa and I have both felt hurt by one another and it is time to move on from that.

Until next week. . .