Melyssa Ford Opened Up About Depression After Her Near-Fatal Car Crash: "Trying to Seek Help Feels Like Drowning"

Melyssa Ford was seriously injured in a near-fatal car accident this summer in Los Angeles. The Blood, Sweat and Heels alum took to social media about four weeks later to thank friends, family and fans for an outpouring of support and express that, as a survivor, her "gratitude is beyond measure." She revealed in the same post that she might never remember everything that happened in the accident because she sustained a skull fracture and concussion, amongst her multiple injuries.

She posted a new picture and message on Instagram on Saturday, Sept. 22, to open up about how she is doing in her recovery.

"I’m battling Depression. Crushing, malignant Depression," she admitted. "It was always there; it’s just been made a little worse because of the head trauma from the crash. There are days where simple tasks takes the effort of 40 men; mornings where I’m unhappy to wake and see the sun because it’s another day spent listlessly looking for solid meaning in life. The guilt I feel at having survived and not feeling constant gratitude is a heavy weight to bear."

She has yet to return to work as a host on Hollywood Unlocked, and the show has featured guest hosts since her accident.

"I’m trying to jump back into my life but it feels like there are two Me’s: Before and After the crash," Melyssa wrote. "And I barely know who Before Me is anymore. Trying to seek help feels like drowning in a strong current with a lifeline swinging right above your head. I say all this to say check in with your ‘strongest friend’... no one ever does."