Thanks, Mike!

First of all, let me apologize to all of you for being MIA. (missing in action) for the first few weeks of blogging. I have had some serious things going on in my personal life and needed to get a grip on things. But I'm ready to dish it out with all of y'all. 

So it's about three days or so after the pool party where I had my fight with The Beast (Asa), so naturally I'm still going through the emotions of the incident. Mike decides to come over so we can talk about it and unfortunately at this point there's alcohol involved... again. Everybody knows that we get forgetful and start saying nonsense when we drink, but I must say that I was truly on another planet. I was talking in circles and nothing made sense. Mike is someone that I've known since I was 13 years old and he claims to truly care about me, but if he cares about me, don't you think he could tell me to stop drinking the wine because I'm not making any sense? A true friend should always be there to look out for you... especially when they see you're drunk, emotional, and unable to stop! Thanks, Mike.

Yes, I think I told 20 different stories about what happened at that pool party, mostly because I drank a bottle of whisky before that fight went down. But, I think the main issue for me was trying to express to Mike that I hated the person I became when I got upset. I hated becoming violent and unable to be controlled. He wasn't listening or caring about the pain I was feeling, so I immediately removed myself and ran to the bathroom. Again, thanks Mike!!!

I have to be honest, the last two episodes all I can think about is my girl MJ and how horribly she's being treated by her bff Reza. I'm not sure why Reza and Lilly decide to talk shit about MJ behind her back. I clearly remember when Lilly told me it wasn't nice that I called The Beast (Asa) a "transvestite" look-a-like. So if it wasn't nice for me to say that, then why are you saying she needs all sorts of help and diet pills? Majority of America suffers from weight issues and suggesting that diet pills will help is not nice.Off to the club scene for Reza... Now I can completely understand going out, getting drunk, and getting frisky with some hot guy... but hold up... I have never done that with a guy that I just met!!! Whatever it is that Omid and I did at the first dinner leads back to our eight years of history together being on and off, and WE ARE NOW ENGAGED TO BE MARRIED!!! [Sorry I had to throw that in there]. But Reza, you said all sorts of mean things about my behavior with Omid, yet you've got all sorts of PDA with a stranger. I ain't mad at you, but don't talk shit about me then go do the same thing. 

Does anyone see a pattern yet of people saying one thing but doing something else??? Stick around... I ain't done yet!!!

My boyyyyyyy Tehran has a get-together amongst the crew, and I'm still too pissed at The Beast (Asa) to want to attend. So naturally I send my (newly-found) fiance Omid there instead.

Let's back it up a few hours. I thought it was so cute watching Lilly and her sister together. I must say OMG her sister is beautiful!!! I enjoy watching the bond they share with each other, especially because I don't have that with my sister. But aren't y'all just going to a bar/lounge or is it a red carpet event? You guys both look gorgeous all dressed regardless!!

Back to the bar/lounge... I know MJ very well, and I truly believe that when she made the comment to Lilly about the dress she was wearing, she was not undermining that she looked glamorous in it; I think she was saying that perhaps her sister's dress would've suited her better for the occasion. I wasn't there, so I don't know, but it's one of those comments that can come off both bad or good. But Lilly takes no time to go in for the kill!!! Insulting each other seems to be the subject of this episode because no one cares how their words are coming off. I clearly remember Season 1 the Las Vegas trip when I arrived to dinner and everyone was treating me like s---, and now, they're doing it to MJ. This is like some high school mean girls s---! It's reasons like this that I used to fight so much growing up. People talk so much s--- behind your back, but act funny style in your face. I'm glad MJ decided to leave that bulls--- situation. I was extremely happy to see Sammy sticking up for MJ. But wait... do you guys remember what Reza's response was to Sammy about why he's being so mean to MJ??? He said his friend (MJ) came into a party and immediately pulled the daggers out and insulted his new friend (Lilly) when she barely even knows her! I'm sorry, but isn't that exactly what The Beast (Asa) did to my man Omid when she first met him at dinner??? So Reza justifies talking s--- about his bff and making her feel so horrible that she has to escape the party, he says he was pissed with her behavior. But when I tried to explain why I was pissed at the comments about Omid, everybody dismissed it.  Now people question why I bring the rage out! NO NO NO it's not good to get physically aggressive with anybody, but come on people, you guys are a bunch of bullies. 

I remember getting back-to-back calls and messages from Omid about how awkward and uncomfortable the night was after all the bullying was going down. He said he was happy I wasn't there because I would've protected MJ and it would've gotten messy. I love that girl. Ya'll are gonna see some serious challenges amongst our friendship this season, but I would never talk shit about someone that I love and truly care about... Unlike some people. 

And yes I talked s--- about The Beast (Asa) and as long as she continues to badmouth me, I will go head to head in this war. So since I wasn't around for the previous blogs, I just need to clear up some rumors that The Beast (Asa) put out there... I DO NOT have fake lips, boobs, accent, or wear a wig. I DO wear extensions from my own hair company GG's Extensions. I DID get a nose job, and I DO get botox. That's it. On a funny note, I do want a little filler at some point in my lips and would like butt implants. Not sure my man or my family is gonna like that though!!! LOL!

See y'all back here for the next episode.