Simone's Mixed Emotions

The doctor is in and having mixed emotions.

This is definitely one of the best weekends of the year when Cecil and I get to hang out for Morehouse and Spelman's Homecoming. You were only able to see a small part of a fun weekend with friends we have known for many years. Also, you got a glimpse of Cecil's pride and joy, his new bar. The bar was built by Classic Bars in Atlanta and the owner, Bob, is a true artist. If you want a custom bar, I would highly recommend Classic Bars.

We had a great time at our homecoming kickoff event with our friends. I was glad Jackie and Toya joined us and met some of our friends. We were sad to miss hanging with Dr. Eugene. Toya is definitely hurt regarding the fight and seems to be sincerely concerned about her relationship with Mariah. Her conversation with Dr. Eugene makes it very clear how much this is affecting her.

Jackie's idea for hosting a Lemon Squeeze seemed to be a good plan for getting the ladies together to see if we could meet at some crossroads and move forward as a circle of friends. However, watching the ladies’ reactions at the Lemon Squeeze is very disappointing. Sour attitudes were a mainstay and made for an uncomfortable and tense gathering.

I was disappointed to hear Mariah say she felt as though I turned my back on her. I will admit I didn't reach out to Mariah after the fight to get her side of the story because I could NOT believe the Mariah I had known for nine years would fight and I had no idea why she was fighting. In retrospect, I should have called her to ask what happened, but the angry and stubborn side of me could not make the call.

Toya reached out and showed her appreciation for my help after the fight. For her gestures, I am thankful because it showed me her gentle side, which helped form a new bond for us. In no way does this mean I took Toya’s side regarding the fight. In my opinion, they were both wrong.

The most difficult part of watching this week's show is hearing Mariah say over and over again that Dr. Jackie couldn’t understand what Mariah was going through because she did not have a biological child of her own. Well, I am a mother and I do understand Mariah’s anger and frustration about not wanting Lauren’s adoption revealed in the way it was done, but I don't understand physically fighting. Things happen all of the time in life that make you want to knock the hell out of someone, but your mind balances the impulse with more rational thoughts, such as the fear of consequences like going to jail. I have learned to resolve conflicts in other ways. So, the comment Mariah makes about Dr. Jackie’s inability to understand issues surrounding children is callous and insensitive.

As an OBGYN, I often deal with the patients who have never been able to conceive. It destroys women and families on a regular basis. Thus Mariah's comment about "not understanding," now seems to come full circle. Mariah doesn't understand how a woman feels when she is unable to have a baby but Dr. Jackie didn’t swing at her, did she!?!

I can't wait for next week's episode when all of the ladies get an opportunity to go to a beautiful winery and relax. It would be a blessing if a different setting could help us get some resolutions to our many issues.

Stay tuned for WWHL tonight with Andy Cohen where I’ll be making a house call!