Kristen: I Made It My Business

How do the SURvers really feel about what goes in (and outside) of the restaurant? Each week we're asking the 'Vanderpump Rules' cast to tell you how they really feels about all the infighting, hookups, drama, and backstabbing. Get a closer look at how the felt about the biggest moments and blow ups by watching the video blog below -- or scroll down to read a full transcription.

Hi, I'm Kristen Doute. Welcome to my video blog.
The anxiety I had and the anticipation, really, of Annemarie coming to L.A. is just more than I can express.
I wanted answers. I know that I'm broken up with Tom, I know James and I are together, and I know that it's probably none of my damn business, but I made it my business.
I had kind of known for a couple of months prior to her coming that there was a possibility. And when she actually did fly in, I found out the day before. She sent me a text that said I will be there tomorrow. She wanted to confront Tom in front of Ariana, but first she wanted to have a sit-down with me. I think it made her feel a little more safe. She wanted to tell her side, and I have her back in that aspect only.
Seeing him kind of take a minute to, like, digest everything and then bolting...I mean how guilty can you be when you bolt from the bar? I mean, I would not lie and say that a little part of me with a little devil on my shoulder wasn't like, "Haha, Sandoval, you're about to get yours."
I still feel like a complete piece of sh-- for the way that I treated Diana. It was just between Scheana getting all worked up about things and the plan not going the way that we thought it was...and she knows I feel absolutely terrible, and it's no way to treat anyone, especially your friend.
I had no idea that Tom and Ariana came back. There's nothing easy about flying across the country to talk to a guy you slept with, his current girlfriend, and his ex-girlfirend just to clear your name.

Yes I sent Tom text messages after Miami, because we had a moment that was, I felt, really necessary and was just me and Tom for one second kind of like cracking the shell and getting to the root of everything. I just wanted him to be honest, just like he wanted honesty out of me.
I'm Kristen Doute, and thank you for watching my video blog.