Shocked and Speechless

Bring in the newbies! This episode you get to meet both Peggy and Fernanda -- the new additions! Peggy has been a friend of mine for four years, and as you can see, she is a fun person! The sad part is that our friendship has been strained quite a bit since she became a part of the cast, to the point where I'm not sure it will recover.

Fernanda and I connected right away! I really like her a lot. She is so flamboyant, happy, positive, big-hearted, and fun that it's impossible not to like the girl! She will be a very entertaining addition!

I have to say that the whole scene where Tamra kisses Fernanda was completely awkward to me. It didn't seem genuine, I feel like Tamra was simply looking for attention... from anyone she can get it from. You could tell Fernanda was caught off guard.

When I'm on the play date with Peggy, it looks as though we are in a competition, but that's truly not the case. We had not had a play date for a few weeks, so there was a lot to talk about, and a lot to catch up on. When I'm discussing my twins potty training, I was explaining how I was frustrated that my twins couldn't get potty trained when James was so easy teach. My comment about the potty training was not geared towards Peggy.

When we were talking about food, I was simply describing which of my kids like to eat what, because they all have such different taste. Peggy told me what her girls were eating or not eating, and I did the same thing. That's what friends do, they talk about what phase each child is at... it's called communication.

As for Peggy's sarcastic comment about James not being signed by an agent, over a year ago James had an offer from Lewis and Beal in LA from an agent, her name is Jackie... so Peggy, you can call for verification. Jackie was sure my son would be a success in the business. My son told me after that day that he didn't like the drive to LA, and didn't think he wanted to be in a car that much, so as a mom I decided he should be playing soccer, basketball, and all the things he enjoys in his childhood rather than traveling to and from LA. I'm not putting my child into a career at such a young age, especially when it seems like he'd rather not. He has his entire life to work. If at some point he changes his mind, I would let him do it.

To be completely honest, Peggy has changed so much over the past several months. She is not the Peggy I knew for the past four years. The things which happen throughout this season are very disappointing and hurtful. I'm sure you will all see in the weeks to come.

All I can say is this, I have everything I want in life, and everyone in my life that I want, so there is no reason I would be jealous of Peggy. We are at totally different places in our life and are totally different people. That is all that this topic even deserves for me to comment about it.

Gretchen taking care of her dogs is hilarious! That's actually exactly how she is with Vito and Rocko. I always tell her she will make a good mom. She treats them like they were humans (like most people in love with their pets). Those dogs have a better life than I did growing up! Ha! It cracks me up, because I know her biological clock is ticking.

Oh boy, now we get to Tamra and I doing pilates together. This was so difficult for me to watch, because this is the first time it is brought to my attention that Tamra isn't actually a friend. I was so shocked after this episode that I was speechless for probably an hour. I do not understand how someone can act like a friend, and be so friendly, do pilates with me, have a cocktail and talk about our friendship, and then say all those mean things about me right afterward. It's completely beyond me. She compared her marriage to Simon to my marriage with Jim, which I thought was absurd. The only similarity is that Jim and Simon both like a more traditional marriage. We can see now that Tamra didn't want that; however, I do still want that. My marriage may not be as traditional as it was in the beginning of our relationship, however it is still fairly traditional in my mind. So when I heard the part where I say to Tamra after she is describing Simon, "Well that's Jim," I have to assume I did not understand what she was saying.

Furthermore, the fact that she would have the audacity to make a prediction about my marriage given that she is divorcing her husband is absolutely ridiculous. Obviously her equation for marriage didn't work, so I think I'll stick to the way I'm handling my marriage. If she doesn't understand my marriage, then butt out! My husband and I have very specific roles that we both love and wanted in a marriage. That's not to say that we don't make adjustments to things as our marriage grows. Jim and I have been together for seven years now, so obviously certain parts of our marriage have changed from the time we met. But that's what a good marriage does... it grows together and not apart; it changes when necessary instead of being stagnant. I truly don't feel it necessary to defend my marriage. We are happy, and that's all that matters. Anyone who wants to gossip about my marriage or insult it, well, that is none of my business and I'm glad to be so entertaining that they feel it important enough to talk about.

Next Tamra insinuates that I'm a gold digger, says that Jim is controlling and not protective, and that she doubts he is supportive... I mean, why the heck didn't she just tell me she didn't want to do pilates with me that night? It's disgusting. Actually, I don't know why I'm so shocked about this. She did the same thing to Vicki last year, acting as if Vicki was her friend to her face, she did the same thing to Gretchen two years ago, and now she is doing it to me. I see a common pattern developing. I feel sorry for her that she doesn't understand what it means to be in love, and that her marriage didn't work. She seems resentful that mine is working, but there are so many other ways she could have told me she didn't want to be friends rather than on this episode. I have cut my losses and am simply praying for her and praying that she finds true happiness.

xoxo,

Alexis