Thank God It's Over

I would like to address my ignorant comment I made on last week’s episode. I want to apologize to anyone I offended. I wish so badly that I could take it back. I of all people have nothing against the gay community and support gay rights 100%. It was not the word I was searching for and not a word I use or condone. I am highly embarrassed and ashamed.

On to the reunion show!

What a relief this season is over, to me it was the season from hell. Many people didn't understand why I had issues with Gretchen. Contrary to what the producers portrayed, and people think, it had nothing to do with jealousy. She is a pretty girl, but there was nothing there for me to be envious of. I'm in a different place in my life, I am most proud of my children, husband, and the life we have. These are the things I hold most dear to my heart.

As you saw from our lunch, I was compassionate and felt bad for Gretchen in the beginning. Then weeks later when I found out there were holes in her story, I became confused and didn't know what to think. I don’t like liars and hate to be lied to even more. I kept my word and kept quiet, only to be portrayed as a jealous, mean woman. As you know, if you hold something in, it will always fester and come out the wrong way. I couldn't help but wonder why anyone would want to spend the last three months of their loved one's life filming a reality show? Then you add the phone calls from Jay and I didn't know what the hell to think. Obviously there is so much more that the viewers do not know.

In hindsight, I should have handled a lot of things and myself differently this season. Oh well, you learn by your mistakes. I'm not perfect and never claimed to be.

For the most part all us girls get a long very well and will have life-long friendships. I hope one day Gretchen and I can talk things out and get past all the BS.

Thank you so much for watching!