Brandi: I Can Love LeeAnne From Afar
Brandi comes to an important realization about her relationship with LeeAnne.
First, I want to say how much I love and appreciate the two amazing years of support towards #RHOD and the journey. It wouldn’t be possible without all of you, so again, thank you.
This has been an incredible year of ups and downs. I have not only grown as a person, but I’ve also challenged myself in more ways than I ever thought were possible.
Being a mother, I have learned to pick and choose my battles, to be patient, forgiving, and understanding. I think children try to manipulate us into getting their ways, but they don’t realize that we are smarter than that.
So with that, I find it shocking and embarrassing that an adult would manipulate a situation and try to break up friendships. I realized that Cary was never given the opportunity to speak at my party to tell us what LeeAnne had said herself on the boat dock.
I feel like there is this deep rooted hatred LeeAnne has for Cary, and it is toxic. I should never feel like I should have to choose between friendships, but I also don’t want to be lied to or used to hurt or attack someone else. If I do something and make a decision, it needs to be on my terms. At lunch with the ladies, my heart felt heavy because I know LeeAnne wants to control me. I’m a free spirit, and I think it bothers her that she can’t control me. However, if I didn’t have friends other than her, would my relationship be like hers and D’Andra’s? Hell no! D’Andra says that she’s in control and would prevent bad behavior when it comes to LL, but I have a hard time believing that LeeAnne will ever change at this point. She clearly doesn’t take her counselors advice, so why would she listen to you, D'Andra? Does she get a cut from your trust fund too? Anyways, I started crying and broke down because my heart just felt like it was sinking. I want to see the good in LeeAnne, but I also feel like giving up. I was realizing that she was playing me and using a very weak spot when it came to my friendships with the other ladies. Last year, I tried so hard to give LeeAnne grace in Austin and let go of the past. I was the only one that offered a tender heart to her at the honest tea. I too have listened to her cry about her broken childhood and every other misfortune that has accompanied her life or so-called story. I’m not dismissing what she has been through, but for her to be a shoulder for me to cry on, I think I’ve given her more than a dozen shoulders. So let’s be honest: a friend should never make you feel puppeteered or played. My feelings were very cloudy, but I also wanted to support LeeAnne’s engagement. This engagement party was stunning, and I can tell the couple is extremely happy. However, I was stunned by the words that came out of LeeAnne’s mouth. She was giving me a piece of her heart and followed it up with "I'll slit your throat" — is this normal? Am I missing something? Did I show up with another party foul to deserve this? Well, thank you, LeeAnne. I love you, too.
The next day, was the engagement brunch, and I felt uneasy because I felt as if LL was trying to manipulate our friendship and control me. I was just thinking, “I’m gonna get through this brunch and take some time to reflect on the past few months.” I will say, it was so sweet of the hostess to ask if Cary and LeeAnne could get along until after the wedding! Are you kidding me? Of all the questions, that one sparked the fire. I was appalled at what LeeAnne was saying. She was being manipulative and lying to cover her own a--, and it was so obvious. I couldn’t take it; my blood was boiling, so I had to call bulls---. I had to be honest and call her out. There is only so much a person can take, and I had seen and heard enough. Game over! If she wants to slit my throat for being honest, then so be it. I had to stand up for the truth. The truth hurts, so I wasn’t surprised at the tears from LeeAnne.
I can love LeeAnne — from afar. LeeAnne, best wishes for your wedding day. I’m sure you will be a beautiful bride.
Hope everyone has a safe and happy Halloween. Thank you again for tuning in. I love you all and appreciate your support.
Cheers,
