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Here’s Why Yolanda Hadid Doesn’t Consider Herself a “Very Good” Real Housewife

"I always felt I was struggling or trying to get my point across," the RHOBH alum recalled.

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Fans who miss Yolanda Hadid on The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills may be surprised to hear how she interpreted her time on the series.

"I don't think I was very good at being on the show," she confessed to The Daily Dish podcast. "I just never felt I was good. I always felt I was struggling or trying to get my point across. But I did it to the best of my ability and I gave it my everything to stay on the show and try to work through it and do what I said I was going to do ... But I don't think I was great at it." 

She went on to say: "Fans, people probably love me because they identify with the experience that I went through. I think it's touched a lot of lives. In the midst of all the chaos, they were seeing me just try to get through my days."

In fact, Yolanda cited her Lyme disease as a factor that made it difficult to continue on the show. "I had to choose for my health," she said, of her decision to leave the show after Season 6 in 2016. "A job is a job and I need to work and I wanted to stay on and I was like, ok I want to have one great season where I could share my heart and share my vision and way of thinking." Eventually, she realized she wouldn't be able to manage everything while battling an illness.

"Thinking back, I've never been on the show in a normal frame of mind, having energy and getting up and going like, 'OK. I'm ready to attack this,'" Yolanda reflected, noting that she probably wouldn't have done the show if she knew she had Lyme disease before joining. 

However, Yolanda said, "I think being on the show has been a positive for all of us. Obviously, for me, it was a struggle dealing with that kind of a show, not having full capacity over my brain. But the other side of it, being on the show has been such an amazing experience; it's given me a platform to bring awareness to Lyme disease and help thousands of people out there that suffer from invisible illnesses ... For me, getting sick and being on the show was the higher purpose of my journey, and it fell into place to help the world with something needed attention and needed a face."

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