Monique Samuels Opens Up About Feeling "Devastated and Afraid" During Her Pregnancy After Suffering a Miscarriage

Monique Samuels is mother to two absolutely adorable children: son Christopher and daughter Milani. Now as The Real Housewives of Potomac entrepreneur gets ready to welcome baby No. 3, she says this pregnancy has a particularly special meaning. 

Monique experienced a miscarriage after she got pregnant for the third time last year, which RHOP fans saw her open up about earlier this season (clip above). She recently opened up about that challenging time in a post on her blog  Not for Lazy Moms, explaining that after the miscarriage occurred around 7.5 weeks into her third pregnancy, she "was a complete mess on the inside." 

But Monique shared the happy news earlier this month that she and husband Chris Samuels are expecting their third child. "I’m more careful than I’ve ever been this time around," Monique wrote in the blog post.

Unfortunately, there have already been complications in her pregnancy. An ultrasound eight weeks into her pregnancy revealed that Monique had a subchorionic hemorrhage in two areas of her placenta that should have been fully attached to the wall of her uterus, she explained in her blog post. "My doctor told me that if the placenta fully separates, I would lose the pregnancy, regardless of the excellent health and size of the fetus," Monique shared. "Talk about devastated and afraid!!!" 

Instead of giving in to the fear that she'll lose her baby again, Monique said that she is committed to staying positive and following her doctor's orders to take it easy. "Although I have been able to focus on positivity, there are times where I find myself nervous to go to the bathroom with the fear I’ll see blood, anxious to hear the baby’s heartbeat after experiencing unusual abdominal discomfort, or just having the thought of not getting too attached to the pregnancy, just in case I lose it again," Monique admitted in the post. "Although I mourn, I am determined that my loss will not define my future or my current pregnancy. What a relief I felt after I made it through the first trimester; a feeling I took for granted twice before when I carried Christopher and Milani. I feel like a cloud has been lifted."

Monique proudly flaunted her baby bump when she announced that she is expecting her third child on Instagram, which you can see above. However, she told The Daily Dish that she's going to wait a while longer before telling Christopher and Milani they have a baby sibling on the way. “We haven’t told Christopher and Milani yet as we would like to wait until we’re a little further along; kids tend to be a little impatient and I would rather them know when it’s almost time," Monique told The Daily Dish earlier this month. "However, they have been giving my belly plenty of hugs and kisses. It’s almost as if they know, but they don’t know they know!" 

Check out more of Monique and her family, below.